I am so nervous.

Tomorrow is the 3rd round for Great Mills Idol. I am sooooo nervous. I am so scared I am gonna mess up or I wont be loud enough. Or some one will go Booo just because they dont like me. RAWR. Well, wish me luck.

Wait! What am I talking about? No one reads my blogs. HA!

<3 or
-Nikita

Am I not pretty enough?

I love my bestie. We've been besties since pre-k. We know everything about eachother and we have eachother's backs. But, I'm tired of people telling me how pretty she is, or hearing people tell her how pretty she is. It bugs me. Yeah, I'm not hot and skinny, but I'm not ugly. I wish someone would tell me I was pretty or even better, beautiful. I know its wrong to be jealous about that, but I hate it. She's had like 13 boyfriends and I've had like 5. Shes always been the skinny pretty one, and I've always been the chubby funny one. I always hear, She is so pretty. I hear, Nikita you are so funny. Yeah I get compliments on my hair alot cause its so rad, and I dye it crazy colors to stand out. Also right now I like this guy, and i tell her how cool he is and funny things he has said. She just met him Monday and now she is all like he is so cute, I hope he asks me out. She doesnt even know him that well. Funny thing is, I LIKE HIM. But nope, she is gonna get her way. She asked me to ask him if he likes her. Of course he said yes because she is pretty. grrr.
I just wish I could hear someone say,"Nikita? Nikita Bimson? She is so pretty."



xoxo

Nikita

Is single always good?

I love being single. Honestly I do. But, sometimes I feel left out of things. Especially at dances. I see everyone dancing with someone, but then there is me left. Nikita, Party of one. Its weird. It feels like a dream where I show up to school in just my bra and underwear. Wait, thats a bad example. XD. It feels like all of a sudden the light is off. And no one cares. Its a bad feeling, but I get over it. Its very rare that I have a boyfriend.
I'm not ugly (well, not anymore much.). I think its just that I'm seen more as a friend, and because I can be such a hyper spaz. lol. So, I'm use to being a 3rd wheel. I've been one most of my life. Ha, who needs love.

Peace and Chicken Grease

Nikita <3

The Best Late Valentine's day present ever!!!

This whole week I was in Pennsylvania and the Great Wolf Lodge had no computer and I just got home so now I am on the computer!
I was so lost. Then I read Mitchel Musso's blog and he wrote a list of girls who is his valentine.
ANNNNNDDDD!!! MY NAME WAS ON THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HHOORRRAAAYYYYYY! The hottest guy ever is my valentine. I feel loved.
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