the sigh of stress

I have been feeling depressed lately.

But I keep telling myself to not let it show.

And it bugs me because I should just let people know.

I'm a loser...

I can't do anything right.

I forgot to make my dad's bed that my friend slept in (since my dad and sister were gone) and my dad got mad about it.

The basement freezer door thing ended up not closing all the way.

I accidently told my grandmom i didnt go to New York(long story short, i didnt want to go to pennsylvania so i told my grandmom i was going to new york).

I've gained 3 pounds.

I can't get a boyfriend.

I have a blabber mouth.

I am in the dead mothers club.....

basically...I am a loser. A fat, ugly, half orphan loser.

the impossible

I don't, I don't wanna be the girl who has everything
I just, I just wanna be the girl who knows what's right
I don't think it's right for me to hide my feelings
I just want to reach out to the crowd, the crowd
and maybe they will be catch me when i fall


I wanna touch the stars, I wanna fly to the moon, i wanna do the impossible
I wanna live my dreams, I wanna do everything, i wanna do the impossible
and i don't care what you say, I'm just gonna be me
cause i am, I'm the impossible


I don't, I don't wanna be the girl who brings her self down
I just, I just wanna be the girl on the stage
I don't think it;s right for you to walk away
I just want you to listen, to listen
and maybe you will listen to my song


I wanna touch the stars, I wanna fly to the moon, i wanna do the impossible
I wanna live my dreams, i wanna do everything, i wanna do the impossible
and i don't care what you say, I'm just gonna be me
cause i am, I'm the impossible


maybe when i finish the impossible, the impossible
I can do, do it again. yeah yeah.


I wanna touch the stars, I wanna fly to you.....but
I wanna touch the stars, I wanna fly to the moons, I wanna do the impossible
I wanna live my dreams, I wanna do everything, I wanna do the impossible
and I don't care what you say, I'm just gonna be me
Cause I am, I'm the impossible

Haven't posted a blog in a while....

So, here's an update.

I turned 15 on May 16.

I finished my freshman year in high school, so I am now a sophomore.

Guys officially suck.(get your mind out of the gutter)

I'm in Arizona right now on vacation.

I miss my friends.

I now weigh 119 pounds. GO ME!!!

I am a DDR BEASTTTTTT

I was suppose to go to a concert and Mitchel Musso was suppose to be preforming, but Rayvn Simone(sp?) cancelled it. rawr.

My myspace is mad rad.

Love

A question from myspace caught my eye.

Do you believe in love?

And this is what I put:

yes and no.
I say I love Mitchel Musso, but I've never met the dude.
I love when I feel fireworks in every kiss, and every time I'm around him I would get butterflies. I would take a bullet for the person I would love. Every moment would be great. WE could be sitting, not saying one word for an hour and I would still have fun. Even on the phone not saying anything, just knowing you are there. Every touch feels magical. The world would be dull without that person
That, boys and girls, is what love is.
This so called "love" is not what I'm expierencing at this moment. I hope I will one day.
Love is a strong word. Cant really believe it. Its like the wind. You can't see it, but you can feel it.
and I dont

Me singing in the Great Mills Highschool talent show.

http://i74.photobucket.com/albums/i256/BethyBoo0000/?action=view&current=nikita_talent_show.flv

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!!!!

I had fun. Did you have fun? I got Bethany like 4 times today. XD
wow.
I told Genny my dog died, then said APRIL FOOLS, and she hit me in the face.
ha

I'm amazazing